Is beauty what we see in ourselves? Or is it simply what others choose to see in us?
No matter the answer, Moe reveals the truth hidden in plain sight: we all just want to be seen for who we really are.
We want people to acknowledge the pain that has molded us, experience the happiness that transforms us, and most of all, build a love, together, strong enough to sustain us through the challenges ahead.
For most of my life, I’ve never felt attractive or saw myself as handsome, even though others might have. Part of this is because I never really had that many relationships that lasted. They always felt like this, “Okay, you’re cute enough for the moment,” but not enough to stay. Because of that, I felt more used than wanted. And that happened for years.
Looking in the mirror, I’ve always found something that I didn’t like about myself. On top of that, I’m a guy that has always been small-framed at 5’6’’, which is just hard. At the end of the day, everyone wants to feel appealing and attractive to somebody. But I’d much rather it be a person who is actually interested in getting to know me, and not just because of what I look like.
Sometimes, it feels like people can’t see past beauty. It’s like a blinding light or something that prevents people from being able to see the person behind it. It’s hard to meet someone who understands that.
With friends, I’ve noticed that many times they find me attractive, but those feelings end up getting in the way of what could be a very good friendship. They want a romantic relationship instead of a friendship, which confuses things, and when that happens it makes me want to separate myself from them, completely. I know it might sound ridiculous but it happens often.
[It feels like people only] take the time to get to know my beauty, without ever caring to get to know me…[eventually] they lose interest, and I’m left wondering why we’re in a relationship to begin with.
And when it comes to romantic relationships, I feel people are attracted to me because of what I look like, and that’s what initially makes them want to get into a relationship with me. But they end up only taking the time to get to know my beauty, without ever caring to get to know me. That leaves me feeling like the beauty that attracted them fades as each day passes and they eventually lose interest, and I’m left wondering why we’re in a relationship to begin with.
If there’s a part of me that I like the most, it’s my eyes. But it’s not just because of their shape or color. It’s because if you really pay close attention, you’ll see the hurt behind them, the strength. You’ll see everything that has made me who I am, and who I want to be, which is why they are piercing and almost inviting. I think the eyes will tell a person all they need to know about you by taking a second and just glaring at one another. I think this is the only true way to SEE me.
Whenever I meet someone, I really try to see them because I want them to feel like they matter. And all I want is the same in return. I want people to take the time to get to know the real me, not just what they want to see. Often times I feel prejudged and not given the opportunity to make a first impression because one has already been made for me. I want people to look beyond the exterior.